I deleted 10 million views worth of videos (and don’t regret it)
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Hey Reader,
This one’s been sitting in my drafts for months.
It’s about something I got completely wrong. Something I taught to others. Something I eventually walked away from after seeing what was really going on behind the scenes.
The law of attraction.
I knew sharing this would piss people off. Anytime you challenge beliefs, you risk people deep in them feeling personally attacked.
I dropped the YouTube version Monday. Most of the comments were people saying, “this mirrors my exact journey.” But there were others. “Grifter.” “Fraud.” “Trend hopper.” The internet’s way of punishing honesty.
I don’t care.
I’m stepping into my “f*ck it” content arc.
Because the example I want to set is this: giving yourself the freedom to change your mind. Even if you have to do it in front of everyone who watched you teach the opposite.
This isn’t a religious angle. This is my experience. If you want to keep believing what you believe, that’s fine.
But if you’re a seeker in this space and you’re starting to feel:
Why am I still stuck after all these techniques?
Is my life actually getting better, or am I just good at convincing myself it is?
Have I outgrown this?
I wrote this for you.
You ever burn yourself out so hard you become… stupid?
That was me.
A decade of hustle culture. I’d ground myself down building a business and creating content until there was nothing left.
Then new age thought hit my feed.
It was around 2020. You probably remember that big wave where manifestation and law of attraction were suddenly everywhere.
It was unavoidable.
And it sounded right.
Everything I was reading made sense.
I wanted it to be true.
So I went all in.
I’m talking $500 worth of crystals. Flowy clothes because you’ve got to look the part. Obscure manifestation techniques I found in “forbidden books.”
I became one of those insufferable dudes at an Erewhon explaining chakras to strangers.
I started experimenting with content about it.
And here’s where it gets crazy…
Everything I posted about manifestation went viral.
Million views on TikTok.
YouTube videos hitting 100K, 200K, even 1M+
And to put this in perspective, up until this point, I’d been grinding my face off for a fraction of these results.
But now? Just mention law of attraction or manifestation… BOOM— videos go gangbusters.
It honestly felt like a cheat code.
I wanted it to be true.
Millions of views = proof manifestation works, right?
The algorithm loved it. I loved it.
Until the dinner.
I’m with a group of entrepreneurs I respect. We’re doing table introductions. That’s when my buddy throws me under the bus.
“Clark’s got a video going viral! Dude, tell ‘em about it.”
Everyone leans in, expecting something profound.
I’m halfway through my burger, thinking, Please not that video…
“What’s it about?” someone asks.
“It’s… uh… how to manifest a text.”
Everyone laughs. I laugh.
But inside I’m screaming, This is my career? Helping people magically get a guy to text them back?
That thought wouldn’t leave.
From there, the cracks started showing everywhere.
Law of attraction teaches: don’t focus on negative thoughts or you’ll attract more. Control every thought. Stay in a high vibe.
But that’s backwards. Self-sabotage is a pattern playing out in your life. If you never look at the negative parts (i.e. core stories running your life) you can never fix them.
Around this time, I launched my first coaching program, Metamorphic.
People who came from my straightforward “how to change your life” self-improvement style videos got amazing results.
That’s when I noticed a direct correlation:
The people whose lives were a wreck, people you wouldn’t trade places with— those are the people who consumed the most new age content.
I spoke to a woman who was trying to build a business. She spent 40 hours a week watching manifestation videos and doing techniques (I’m not exaggerating).
I asked, “What if you spent that time building the business instead?”
She hung up.
Then I started meeting the behind-the-scenes gurus. One laughed about making up and teaching complicated techniques he personally doesn’t use. Another pulled out his phone within 30 seconds to flex his cars and Stripe accounts.
Gross.
I didn’t want anything to do with it anymore.
So I made one of the biggest line-in-the-sand moments of my career:
I deleted over 10 million views worth of videos.
Months of work.
Amazing passive income.
Gone.
I created those videos for algorithms. I couldn’t stand by them anymore.
Look, I didn’t have to make this public. I could’ve quietly moved on and pretended it never happened. Maybe that would’ve been smarter.
But here’s what I’m modeling for you: giving yourself permission to change your mind, even publicly, might be the most spiritual thing you can do.
We live in a time where changing your mind gets you labeled a “grifter.” As if evolving is some kind of sin.
Screw that.
Don’t let who you used to be define who you are today.
You’re not defined by what you used to believe.
You’re defined by what you choose to believe now.
So that’s the story of how I got here.
But the real question is:
what’s actually broken with New Age, and what’s still worth keeping?
I break it all down in this week’s video—the traps, the toxic beliefs, and the practices that actually aren’t BS.
Click here to watch the full breakdown
See you next saturday,
CK
